Post by tonystrak on Jan 16, 2018 7:50:58 GMT
Hi,
I've always had a protective personality and because of that we seemed to work really well together.
He needed a lot of help from me, and I was always there to give it.
He got really bad about 2 months in, however. He threatened suicide multiple times, got mad at me over absolutely nothing, etc. I still stayed with him and helped him through everything. After he recovered from that episode, he immediately went into the most lovely-dovey state ever: "I want to marry you, let's plan our future..." etc etc. Of course, I went along with it. I practically loved the boy.
Fast forward a few months, he visits the college I'm studying at, decides to come here for Fall 2015, and that's where it all happens.
about 2 weeks into that semester (we would have been dating approx. 8/9 months at the time, he calls it off.
yadda yadda I wont go into detail because meh.
This absolutely crushed me. I've been doing awful since then. I can't sleep, I can't eat, sometimes I can't even get out of bed. I haven't cleaned my room in God knows how long and my head constantly hurts. I'm a 4.0 student and I can't even go to class half of the time. I have the worst thoughts that I didn't even know I was capable of thinking. I guess I just feel trapped in a big black hole. I've tried to do some old hobbies, hang out with my family, but when i get back home and i lay back down in my bed alone, i lose my mind and i was just bawling until that puts me to sleep. I've spoken to a Dr., got on lexapro, took myself off of them because I had this sudden feeling one day "This isn't too bad, I can do it!" - worst idea ever.
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I've always had a protective personality and because of that we seemed to work really well together.
He needed a lot of help from me, and I was always there to give it.
He got really bad about 2 months in, however. He threatened suicide multiple times, got mad at me over absolutely nothing, etc. I still stayed with him and helped him through everything. After he recovered from that episode, he immediately went into the most lovely-dovey state ever: "I want to marry you, let's plan our future..." etc etc. Of course, I went along with it. I practically loved the boy.
Fast forward a few months, he visits the college I'm studying at, decides to come here for Fall 2015, and that's where it all happens.
about 2 weeks into that semester (we would have been dating approx. 8/9 months at the time, he calls it off.
yadda yadda I wont go into detail because meh.
This absolutely crushed me. I've been doing awful since then. I can't sleep, I can't eat, sometimes I can't even get out of bed. I haven't cleaned my room in God knows how long and my head constantly hurts. I'm a 4.0 student and I can't even go to class half of the time. I have the worst thoughts that I didn't even know I was capable of thinking. I guess I just feel trapped in a big black hole. I've tried to do some old hobbies, hang out with my family, but when i get back home and i lay back down in my bed alone, i lose my mind and i was just bawling until that puts me to sleep. I've spoken to a Dr., got on lexapro, took myself off of them because I had this sudden feeling one day "This isn't too bad, I can do it!" - worst idea ever.
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