Post by tonystrak on Jan 16, 2018 7:49:11 GMT
Hi,
For the first time in my life I am truly heartbroken. The pain is overbearing. I cannot concentrate on anything else, my anxiety is through the roof, I cannot eat or sleep. I am fighting tears throughout the day. I have no friends I can really turn to... I am so alone in this.
We were arguing a lot due to my insecurities and I'm pretty sure I have BPD. This lead me to saying and doing things I regret so much, my emotions get so out of control. He was such a beautiful person inside and out and I ruined it. I completely understand why he wouldn't want to be with me. He was my life, the only person I really socialised with, the only person I could be myself with... Now what do I do?
To make matters worse, he wants to make it "official" in person, next weekend. You see, this past week I have been out of the country and he made it clear through text that he wants to break up and that's why he wants to meet me in person. I messaged him yesterday and he replied so casually, saying how happy and relaxed he was feeling. I told him I felt "far from okay" and he just replied "I thought that would be the case :/". He seems to be over me so quickly. Apart from last night, I hadn't talked to him since Tuesday and he hasn't messaged me since. We have been together for nearly a year and every single day we have talked. So I know for sure he is serious about breaking up with me. His silence is killing me. His casual attitude kills me even more. I cannot believe how quickly he seems to be over me and I'm starting to get really anxious he's met somebody else already. I feel so broken hearted, I just cannot function. I have never felt pain like this before... And I am so alone.
Please help.
Thanks!
I didn't find the right solution from the Internet.
References:
www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f24/dealing-with-heartbreak-alone-2034945/
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For the first time in my life I am truly heartbroken. The pain is overbearing. I cannot concentrate on anything else, my anxiety is through the roof, I cannot eat or sleep. I am fighting tears throughout the day. I have no friends I can really turn to... I am so alone in this.
We were arguing a lot due to my insecurities and I'm pretty sure I have BPD. This lead me to saying and doing things I regret so much, my emotions get so out of control. He was such a beautiful person inside and out and I ruined it. I completely understand why he wouldn't want to be with me. He was my life, the only person I really socialised with, the only person I could be myself with... Now what do I do?
To make matters worse, he wants to make it "official" in person, next weekend. You see, this past week I have been out of the country and he made it clear through text that he wants to break up and that's why he wants to meet me in person. I messaged him yesterday and he replied so casually, saying how happy and relaxed he was feeling. I told him I felt "far from okay" and he just replied "I thought that would be the case :/". He seems to be over me so quickly. Apart from last night, I hadn't talked to him since Tuesday and he hasn't messaged me since. We have been together for nearly a year and every single day we have talked. So I know for sure he is serious about breaking up with me. His silence is killing me. His casual attitude kills me even more. I cannot believe how quickly he seems to be over me and I'm starting to get really anxious he's met somebody else already. I feel so broken hearted, I just cannot function. I have never felt pain like this before... And I am so alone.
Please help.
Thanks!
I didn't find the right solution from the Internet.
References:
www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f24/dealing-with-heartbreak-alone-2034945/
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